In our church's youth group, our pastor has been talking about the faith that Joseph had as described in Genesis...how he had a crappy time for years before God finally delivered him, yet he never lost faith. He, Job, Abraham, Noah, Hannah, Sarah, and many others are all great examples of faithful men and women. I needed a boost of faith today, so I looked through my bible's concordance and found a verse that really lifted my spirits:
"He [Abraham] did not weaken in faith when he considered his own body, which was as good as dead (since he was about a hundred years old), or when he considered the barrenness of Sarah's womb. No distrust made him waver concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong in his faith as he gave glory to God, fully convinced that God was able to do what he had promised. That is why his faith was 'counted to him as righteousness.' But the words 'it was counted to him' were not written for his sake alone, but for ours also. It will be counted to us who believe in him who raised from the dead Jesus our Lord, who was delivered up for our trespasses and raised for our justification" (Romans 4:19-25).
I'm not going to lie, I've not had a ton of faith in the past few months. I've tried to work things out on my own instead of having faith that God would fufill His promises. I've also struggled with figuring out what God's promises for me are. I know that His will is sovereign and is what is best even if we don't quite understand it...or if His will/promises aren't clear. I know that God will not harm me, that He will not lead me astray. But I am the type of person that needs to know. I like to know clear-cut answers. I was talking to a good friend last night and I told her "I wish God would just give me a yes or no answer!"
At any rate....I'm trying to be faithful. I guess that's kind of my goal for April. I'm trying to keep that verse highlighted in purple at the front of my mind this month.